What if I told you I was happy
Even though I didn't look it
would you believe me
see the lie in my eyes
Tear down the guise
Take off my rose colored goggles
Minds are boggled at my expression
Because they know about my past
Happiness doesn't last
It's only real when it's shared
Tell me you really care
I really need to hear it
Mind is cloudy, vision hazy, Could you Please clear it
Clearance into my heart is only granted with this credence
I shall not abandon you for another
I shall not hide anything from you
I shall not be ashamed to love, care for, and please
No matter the issues we have, my intentions are true
Fix my heart, repair my soul
give me love, give me goals
Inspire me to smile, inspire me to take control
Lord knows I need some consolation
Elation, stimulation, validation, appreciation
salvation from damnation, felling that aren't trepidation
Your manifestation in my imagination
deadkid
Staring at a new moon with longing
Wanting to see what's really out there
Amognst the blackened sky with white specks
Perplexed on why I'm not meant for the simple things
To you, I annex, the Low Man's Lyric I sing
Woe is me, oh, woe is me
no one makes me as low as she
Can't take the hint she doesn't like me
But I love her, can't you fucking see
Excuse my language, I'll watch my mouth, pardon my french
I'm forever on the sideline, chained to the bench
Embarrass myself on the daily, where has your smile been lately
Eyes looking shady, you're shaking, remember who I was vaguely
Home is prison, work is jail
Screams are thunder, tears are hail
Feelings are veiled
Making moonlight wishes on fading comet trails
Starlight, star bright
Very first star I see tonight
I wish I may, I wish I might
Have this wish I wish tonight
I wish I had future sight
I wish you were here tonight
I wish history I could rewrite
I wish the stars were out tonight
The sinking feeling in the pit of chest reminds that I'm still alive
Forever wandering this blue sphere with nothing for anyone
Except misery and despair, broken dreams and false hope
Yet, I still traverse, tired and abandoned, trying to find my meaning for living
Could it be that you are the reason for existing?
Or have I convinced myself that the delusions I have are what's meant to be
But ultimately knowing that it will never be like the fantasies in my head.
I'm just so unstable.
...Help me...
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