Are you ashamed to love me?

On the off chance a girl likes me
I won't pick up on it, unless she straight up tells me
Learned quick and young that love ain't the same like on the telly
It's not all forehead kisses, anon poems, and cuddling back to belly
Speaking from experience, I've never been desired
Do you know how it feels to be just as useless as a flat tire
Do you think it has what it takes to be me?
To have to carry the weight of over encumbered feelings?
Well, it's a weight I'll have to carry
Wait, I can just unload my burden on this instrumental
About how looks and weight have played into my love life
Or how my love life has affected me and turned me downright awkward and shy
Let me stop before you think I'm bitching, moaning, and weeping
They'll never see me breakdown, think you will, keep dreaming
I watch who I confide in, my broken heart needs safekeeping
Because in my past, I had to deal with a lot of people creepin

Are you ashamed to love me?
Are you ashamed to hug me?
Are you ashamed to say he's mine?
Are you ashamed to know that you're on my mind almost all the time?

I can't help that I open my heart to a pretty face
Brown eyes are kypronite, winks cause paralysis
Anxiousness, loss of common sense, and depth for analysis
I couldn't flirt back, fabulous, I'm an catalyst for abstinence
I'm from a period where being a virgin is embarrassing
You're labeled as a loser if you don't lose it before leave high school
Either that or gay, but hey, what's the difference
If you ain't getting pussy, nigga, you just ain't cool
Being shy has ruined me, I'm no longer skittish
I'm only 20, and I feel like my love life is finished
Face nothing less than blemished, solemn self-cynic
When one makes me feel distinguished, another makes me diminished
I dream during the day, I see darkness when I'm sleeping
Maybe my heart wasn't meant for love, it will only end up seizing
Hide in my shell, hermit to room, cave retreating
Please for the love of God, tell me, you're not Creepin

Are you ashamed to love me?
Are you ashamed to hug me?
Are you ashamed to let them I'm yours?
Are you ashamed when you have to say no to those other boys?

Do you delete all your messages when we have conversed?
Are the things you tell me from the heart or where they all rehearsed?
Did you fall in love with me versus the things I did, the words I flirt?
I wish to know if I'm I'm future, or I will be left in reverse
Do I deserve this curse or is this a cruel joke?
Who did I provoke to get this treatment, who did I invoke
You know it's bad when you don't dream, and you'd rather stay awoke
When you don't like to look at yourself in a mirror and you wade through the smoke
Somedays I wish I never caught those feelings
Sadness is abundant, the melancholy is never fleeting
Happiness is warm gun, hollow point got me bleeding
It feels like I got shot through the heart, and I'm to blame for the creepin

Are you ashamed to love me?
Are you ashamed to hug me?
Are you ashamed to tell me how you really feel?
Am I ashamed to tell you how I really feel?